Last night, I slipped on the sidewalk. Just steps away from the house where inside a warm bed awaited. For once, I actually made it. Walking through the winter night, a misstep turned into a slide. Looking over to the light, two pairs of arms clinging tightly as they slipped down out of my sight. It was all I ever needed to feel alright – to know I hadn't made it up in my mind; to know that all along, about you I was wrong.
Last night, I slept on the sidewalk. Just steps away from the house where inside our warm bed awaited. Knowing now you betrayed it as I lay bleeding on the ice. The cold wind closing up my eyes, letting out one last sigh. I couldn't be more content to die here, speechless and paralyzed. I had all I ever needed to feel alright. I knew I hadn't made it up in my mind. I know that all along, about you I was wrong.
Track Name: Fountain
I’ll take all the blame for how I was then,
placing all the blame on the outside
of the walls, locking me inside a fantasy
of the walls, blocking out reality
I built so well around me
How misled by a desperate attempt
at changing the path on which I was set
before I listened to the words
like from a fountain,
glistening with sunlight on every drop
that blinded and drowned out my own thoughts
I’m learning to live with this new found faith
to know any end is one I’ve created
I’m learning to love this darkness inside
that turns up when I take the wrong medication
Now that I know what the mind can be sold
I hold tightly to all that I know
I want to love, I want to be loved
and that’s enough.